Another Lost Weekend

I didn't run at all this weekend. It was the hottest weekend of the year, and the last thing I wanted to do was run. I am officially admitting my mistake of switching run times to the evening. While it fits my schedule better, the evenings are much too hot to run safely.

I'm going to have to force myself to get up early again, and I'm reluctant to do this because it is so hard to get so sleep at night. One of the problems is that I find so much to occupy my brain, and with the Adderall-induced ability to hyperfocus, I get lost easily and time drips away steadily like water from an aging sink.

Here's something about the heat: When I woke up Saturday morning the temperature was 73 degrees--a great temperature for summer running. I put off running for another hour or so, and before I knew it the temperature had climbed into the eighties. You can run in these temps at night, but in the day, with the sun weighing down on you like an elephant, you are more prone to heat sickness. Or worse.

I didn't get anything else done either. I had a lost weekend. Back when my depression was at its height (I think it could be getting back up there if my last post is any indication), I had what I called Lost Weekends. These weekends began on Friday night and ended on Monday morning when I got back to work. A Lost Weekend consists of zero communication with the outside world other than with the fast food drive-thru person, and nothing of importance gets accomplished at home.

I can only blame myself for this Lost Weekend. I had no plan of attack. The ADDer needs a plan and a calendar itemizing everything that needs to be accomplished. I tell you, dear reader, that calendars suck. I hate them, and yet I know that I cannot live without them because I simply cannot remember what needs to be done.

I'm going to try my damnedest to get the ship righted again. Personally, I feel as if I've fallen behind the last couple of weekends, and I'm not sure of the best way to turn things around. I guess the only way is to live it day by day, and by this time next week maybe I will be able to write on this blog that I've accomplished a couple of things. We shall see.

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My goals for this week are to run 20 miles and to avoid all fast food. That shouldn't be too hard, but I have ways of making the simplest things difficult.